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I’m really unable to decide god,what should be my step.

In December end, when I actually tried to know about my transfer status officially ,it was always said that “We are trying out”…I actually cound not know whether they will work out or not,so I tried to find out things otherwise, from my personal sources,n came to know that to the team to whom resume was forwarded has not even opened & seen it..that made me feel immensely bad n then I thought its better I resign ,there is no hope.

But, I took last chance by discussing the issue with RBH –Jeetu boss , who was of the plan that instead of routing via HR channel,it should have been worked out by Functional heads..as per the later discussion done by rajive,it was very much clear that JR had taken up it with Harish Boss & Rajive & I was very clear that I cannot give my time to this organization anymore beyond 31^st Jan,so that the things are planned & executed on urgent basis.

I had to wait fr that day,but in b/w 2 new scenes arose,a day before I was told by Harish that Rajive is gonna work out things for me n it was already discussed on a serious note.

N today a new story, that  north HR head –Siddhartan had called Harish to say that I should keep calm for 1 more month as things will be done till then, I had to cross question whether is it the confirmatory action ,that I will be transferred, but this tym he seemed much positive than previous talks..

Chikku, before my discussion with JR ,I was very pessimistic about ongoing actions but after that if these senior people are approaching themselves to me, there must have been some strategy being made & within a week, rajive n harish both have approached me twice, means some work is gng on now…

Initially I was of the mood that I should resign(before discussing with JR) to be with you jaana,but as I’m seeing the situation now,I think one month is preety good tym as per CBH’s words..no extention beyond that,if this comes in a consent with mamiji n papaji..

Initially,we wanted to be together,but then focused shifted to ur trying harder n harder to switch ur job,if I would have got the transfer,u would have had to settle up n definitely the pace of job change would have slowed down,it is a reality…

I also felt that I should work out a bit slowly so that u also get enough tym n space fr ur career which as per me is my utmost priority,but I dnt know what happened today.

I gave an end date to rajive ‘coz I had doubt on his strength to actually make things happen,but I dnt knw the internal story gng among senior members.

I have decided,dada will try to knw smthng within  a day n I’ll discuss d same with papaji n work out as per his instructions..

Also,there is no harm in going to jodhpur,my aim was just that there is nothing for me to do in Jodhpur n still I have fear within me ,but I realized that m married now n it is my moral responsibility n I should not fear /hesitate from gng…I’m ready fr it dear..

Marriage is not an easy task,if u r a family oriented person,focus from 2 shifts to 4 n many..u have to try to give love to all ur elders n younger ones alsong with keeping the light of our future alive n enlightened within us…it is a big big responsibility n hope we both will succeed in it.

We are going thru’ lots of ups n downs but as in the end we feel that it happened for a cause,hope the end of this period will also make us feel happy about r decisions…

Shaayad mai jodhpur is Sunday ko na jaa pau,as abi weakness bahut h..m unable to take proper food,so pls dnt take it otherwise,I’ll go next week..no issues frm myside..

Luv u…..

for my hubby!!

For the very first time,M deviating from the past thought of inking down my feelings in diary to blog spot!
Well ,all days from the start of 2011 went with a complete transition of feelings,from what to do,what not at inlaws place to career orientation..

Joing back ,gave a big blow..we lost our sweet pulsar ,bought 1.6 yrs ago...I remember sitting on bike fr d first tym,vn i vnt to Delhi after chikku bought it:)
Anywaz,chikku's attitude has alwaz inspired me to cope up with pessimism in nano seconds...I admire him for his great quality!

Well,post that was  also no more diff,as tension surrounding my going to delhi,his cming to jpr,both of us going to third place kept my mind functional for 24 hrs & that too without any solution!!No answers ,i feel i'm in the same state as 3-4 months back just for r togetherness.
 I do afraid going back to jodhpur,as i feel staying apart alwaz keeps love alive without any regrets or troubles ,n here i would alwaz love it as i want to live as a close knitted family.But,I dont know whats hidden in the girth of future ..I'll have to still wait..

But,ya Chikku,I'll support ur feeling of conveying this msg to papaji that "We are there..hum hain na fr u,alwaz"

 Rest for next Blog,till then ,keep smiling;)