Events which leave ever lasting impact

Events are known to leave ever-lasting impact on us .. Few are scary and others inspire us to look back whenever we feel short of courage or need to take some impact-full decisions . I would like to narrate one such incident  .

  

It was very very late in the night or I can say too early for a morning because even newspaper hawkers and milkman who are obviously first to wake up in the world are also 2-3 hours away from hitting the roads. I seemed to be landed in a No-man's Land at 3 am in morning and the surrounding seemed to be a perfect setup for EVIL DEAD version 34.

I work with a Company involved in installation of Wind Turbines and these are generally located at sites far away from residential/commercial area and put up on barren or abandon land parcel. So travelling to these sites is always a logistical challenge. As my work involves pre-site survey, I am generally the first one to venture to these sites before team is given go ahead for further civil work.

During One such assignment, I need to visit a site which is 120 km away from railway station and there was only 1 train going from Delhi and reaching around 9 pm in night. It was month of January, days were short and the density of fog was super high. Due to FOG my train got late and reached at 2 am in morning. Being a broad gauge there was no Pantry attached and I was starving for food for almost 6 hours since dinner time. Also my phone has gone dead; the station was in complete dark due to probable power cut. Only 2 more passengers got down at the station and both seemed to be the Warrior of Dark Forces :). I was shivering with cold and was hungry and was scared to hell and there was no single transport to take me to the hotel 40 km away. With low on energy, even my mind started slowing down. In the darkness, even dog barking seemed to echo like a lion's roar. Although I know it's childish to fear from dark, but yes I was scared as hell. For the first time, I prayed to God to send someone. 

To get over my fear, I started singing loud. Although, I was messing up with lyrics of song and my mind was only throwing songs taken from Horror movies like, but I kept singing.

Suddenly I saw a flash of light, probably coming from a torch with increasing intensity coming towards me. It was a 75-80 year old man with “Khaki “ colored uniform who came very close to me and whispered “ Bhai , Kaun ho “ . I was so happy to see a Human Figure and desperately wanted to HUG him but my social sense prevailed and I calm told my entire situation.

He introduced himself as a Hawker for the only newspaper stall on Station; he has lost his memory and got separated from his family 10-12 years ago. He took me to his closed shop , opened it for me and offered Water , some food . I thought He will use this situation to charge high money from me but he totally refused to take any and said “ We are child of One God and instead of Paying it to me ,  hopefully help someone in future who seeks help from you “ “ It’s our way to keep humanity alive “ .

I was totally moved by his words and courage.  He shared his mattress with me and let me sleep inside his shop to prevent from cold. At 7 am, when fog reduced and people started arriving on station, he made some breakfast for me and arranged a taxi to drop me to hotel .

After my site visit, while taking train back to Delhi . I again met him and thanked from bottom of heart.

So every time, when I feel world is getting worse and humanity is vanishing. I recall that night encounter and get re-filled with optimism that there is still a hope. And I will continue to pass on this hope to everyone surrounding me.

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Two poles of Mind

Many time we don't need someone to argue ... its our own mind which takes poles apart to start the discussion

there is a topic which is currently peeps up every time i am alone or aloof  which is " what to do next " . i am at a place where i am at age of 26 after a hell of qualification which people term is necessary enough to climb whichever ladder i want to ...still don;t able to set my priorities straight .

so the discussion begin with if i want peace of mind or i want material pleasure  ??? first stand  .. lets go back to home town to live back with papa . mummy with nephew - niece , with sisters and all other for whom i care .. may be back i can't please them with monetary gifts but i can be with them in small events .. sadness and happiness making all of them to part of my memory , cherish the pleasure to be with them becaz if i realize after 5-10 yr this point and then there will no-one who can have same bonding with me as they have in present ... may be then jodhpur will became same as what delhi is for me today ..........

But the counter points comes - hey monu  there are 15- 17 of your cousin who are there with family but see their living standard .. they are almost at same place where u left 4 yrs back .. there family seems unaffected by their presence ..they had become a part of the furniture out there . Also My Family had Expectation ... i want to buy them stuff which they missed to bring life to three of us ... my nephew and niece sees me as uncle who will bring loads of gift  .. they take me as ideal who is fighting against all odd , leaving far away from family and always made all the right decision .. and back home i will not able to provide the extra things which i always wanted for myself ....my parents made my life better then their own ... now its my duty to pass this leagcy to future chaps ..

And now its not about me .. its about us ...i known she has all good intentions ...she will be a good housewife ..but the fears of in-law make her scared of jodhpur ... I truly understand her point as making it with my mother is a big gamble and in case things don;t make up well , life of all will be hell .. somewhat what we encountered in last trip ...

Truly speaking , till time i was alone in delhi .. all pain - problems i tried to absorbed on my own ...Not transferring that to my family ... knowing that they are already dealing with many back there ... but now i am scared i want to give comfort to her and doesn't known the definition of Ideal Husband .. may be nobody trained or explained what is called a good husband is .. i am still like her old friend who can resolve her difficulty but now to fixer my role has become planner .. her life planner and that makes things scared what if my decision went wrong ?? .


Hope like always ... my mind comes up with a solution by gods grace just before the time i am about to  break .. i known i believed this for 26 year and this going to be continue ..thats why people call me Smart ... and i knw who is behind this smartness .... My gods blessing . 

Reading Omens

God Has lots of thing to share with us ..they try to share them with situation , hurdles , peoples and choices .

he want us to learn through small difficulties and to get prepared for bigger one ... For the time , there was one constant knock on my mind for the job i am stuck in ... for 100 reasons i knw , it was only 3-4 reason which were kept me moving with this Work ...the Life which was constantly detorating my confidence , my urge to improve my life .. my capaciy to demand and get what a person like me deserved ... but u i ignoring the omens .... may be the omens send by god in form of low increment , late promotion. negligible bonus and a super - duper dumbo of the century boss went unnoticed by me ... just becaz of the fear what i am remain unemployed ... what people will say ...........

But God being the grand papa get the things done in most unexpected way and thats why the drama called EA happeened ... a Movie like scene was created ,, strong promises made ... a euphorian life was build around ... and just when the purpose was achieved .... i took the step ... the scene completed and suddenly the whole setup vanished .. just like it happen with movie set and what left was two of us wondering what at all happened .. But the role has now reversed and 2 professional with around 9 + package updated their status to " soon to be unemployed  " ...... One thought was - " hey its a big conspirancy ,, we have been cheated .. why such events happen to us .. what will we do ... what will we say to others ....when we started enjoying our lifes where from these cloud of uncertainty surrounded us ...

But the other thought is - that the way god teaches us hard lesson ... when we dont take the pile on our own ... they make things happen in their own forceful style .. the medicine may taste bitter for some time .. but believe it will have positive effect afterward  .. like it always happens and my 26 years is full of such example as i always resisted change and was always forced to accept then as they were good for me ........

Momma ,.. other then grey & white shades ..life has other colors too and we together will see and overcome all such phases .. this will only make our life truly rememberable and our relation stronger and stronger